Having Fun is Fun

I haven't blogged in a while because France has gotten pretty fun in the last month. The Carnival de Nice was going on for about two weeks. It's kind of similar to Mardi Gras and started in the 13th century. There were a couple events that were just okay, but the Parade of Lights was pretty cool and some of the floats and costumes were amazing.

Then, we went to London for a bit and had a blast. We filled up on good restaurant food because we are still missing it over here. We had Mexican one night and I am pretty sure I didn't look up from my plate the whole time because I was busy scarfing down my burrito. We went shopping and I found some ridiculously affordable vintage clothes, which is a big deal since clothes are so expensive here and the shopping options are not great.

We saw an interesting art exhibit with Barney Wong at the Tate Modern that left me feeling a little out of sorts because of her acid inspired work. It was Yayoi Kusama- a Japanese multimedia artist who thrived during the 60s and 70s in New York's avant-garde scene. She was crazy, did lots of acid, and finally admitted herself to an institution. I found her very phallic pieces a little unsettling, but loved her light installations. We also saw some of her pieces in the Louis Vuitton store. Anyway, she's interesting so check her out if you have a chance.

Right after our return to Nice, we headed up to Aups in Provence to stay with some friends for a couple days. This place is ridiculously beautiful. I wish I didn't have to work on homework so much while I was there so I could enjoy it more. They made the village life see so charming. We ate some good food, saw a cool church and a monastery, and actually got to enjoy the sun for the first time in a while. Very simple life, but could be a second home when we are like 80 or something.

Now, it's back to the grind: schoolwork (the load will increase for me after this week so I can graduate early in September), grad school applications, and fleshing out plans for the future. Two weeks ago, something happened to me. I don't know exactly what caused it, but something in me changed. I feel more educated, more aware, more excited about the future, and in general more healthy about my outlook on life than ever.

I know that one influence is the fact that I now study so much- for school and independently. I used to read a lot as a kid- like, a big chapter book a day. This feeling is kind of comparable to that. I am adding so much information to my brain every day. My ability to understand issues in the news- especially marketing and business related issues- has increased immensely.

Also, since I am applying to schools, I have been forced to really think about what I am going to do with my life. If I am going to be admitted to this program that only accepts 30 people, I need to show how I will use the education for my businesses and projects. I need to know where I am headed. And now I do. And it's a little scary.

I have never really been at full potential before. There has always been something weighing me down like negativity, bad boyfriends from the past, thinking I'm not good enough, feeling like I'm never smart enough, having an unfulfilling job, and the list goes on and on. But, those things are not in my life or in my head anymore.

Also, I have the most amazing partner any girl could ask for. I am so lucky to have found my soulmate. He is so supportive and inspired me to make a lot of changes, of which I am now seeing the rewards. Dang. My man is awesome and we are going to do some great things for this world.